afraid

haiz..i really feel afraid when i look clearly on my teeth..getting more n more holes
since im small,mt teeth structure r not well structured,or should say as vy vy ugly,
not only big,but senget here n there,n everyone see me sure wil say,later on must wear braces..
actually im vy scared of those teeth things,my teeth not only not nice,but get spoil easily compare to other normal ppl..
when primary sku,i always get call to the dentist room in school, n everytime sure something will happen,if i hv to take off my teeth,the whole sku will hear my crying sounds..haiz..cant control,
so once i saw the green card arrive to my class,i start to worry on..
n the dentist is my mum's fren,den she will tell how serious r my teeth to my mum...i really afraid to hear wat she say although i heard bfore many times jor..
so when in secondary school,i started to hv appointment for my braces at the alorstar main gov dental clinic..
as bcuz of my teeth r weak n hv many fillings nd to b done bfore start wearing it,so i delay quite a long time..
after wearing it,the doctor advised me to take care of my teeth well as im in special case,if not when i take off will b vy cham....
therefore,i really brush teeth once i ate something,but my teeth still vy weak,always get complain abt hygiene...haiz...the doctor got mention bfore when im baby dat time,mayb lack of calsium or duno wat dat made my teeth cant b strong,n my liquid inside my mouth is pekat...
i really afraid of the feeling on the dental chair,wif the spotlight show on u...but i always hv to b brave for myself...
i stil remember the day when i take off my braces,i really nearly faint to c my teeth...i immediately go private clinic for filling,but she just done 2 for me..n nd to go back again...but i really afraid of facing reality,dats my bad habit
today again i saw my teeth,is worsen ,wif more caries,ohno!!!i straight away feel like crying out
y always happen to me though once i hv my meal i brush my teeth,but is still so....mayb i no oftenly floss it...i gonna tell my dad faster bring me to clinic again..no more delay!!!shereen pls dun delay appointment d!!!=.=...............