idiot me

lolz..wats wrong with this topic again..
hmmm..i wanna bla out all my weaknesses dat i do really hate..
i think i wrote it out would giv me more remind in future..
dont do it again shereen lee!!

1. start frm everyday morning when wake up...if u r my close friends,esp my roomate,neighbour n my family members,,sure wil get wat i wana say out..
haha..yes...im a pig...i set alarm wanna wake on dat particular time...but...i wil wake n set 10 minutes la..den close again n set 5 minutes...end up sumtime wil b late for class..aiks
at 1st i tot wanna wake earlier so dat i can take my time prepare for class or work or wake early for sport..but i do always change my mind once the alarm ring...by the time,i will think it will b good if could sleep more awhile...
aiks..hv to change it !!

2.my temper....i do friendly sometimes,but i think i would also turned to bad temper when im not in my mood..
erm,how to say,mayb when exam,stress den if sumone ask me question ..den i explained d n she stil couldnt get wat i said,i wil jz arghhh..u c it urself la..(bad rite me?..but actually i do like to teach my frens if they get my point easily)
den sumore..in house,i will always feel geram ...sumtimes my dad aint punctual or too jaga my mum..i will arghhh..n %&$&*&*..aike..how i wanna control this...dis really bad as a daughter..

another..my grandma..lastime i vy sayang her de..think dat i could not live without her..but now...wah..i really cham..as we knw..old ppl vy like to bla bla bla..n think dat themselve most geng n corect de..but mayb my grandma always din think fully,n always bla sumthing...
so sumtime i cant tahan den will said her..actually i said d aso wil feel sorry to her..but..erm..sumtime the scenario really not like wat she think...but anyway i knew dat i should bear wif her..dont say out in high pitch..try to chang n remind

den my mum...hmmm...we do always argue..but when i grew elder,i try to close up our relation,n yes after i hv my hostel life,we do talk better..hv topics..but compare to others mum n daughter..there still hv some gaps..i duno y as it since im young...
my mum..i duno how tovoice out my opinion to her sometime..as in my eye,she is dat type she is right mostly...so i really din dare to say "no,u r wrong"..so i jz think in my brain...
so usually i burst my word out when i really cant tolerate or in front of relatives..
she do get the msg i guess..but the effect is huge!!haha..i wil get scold gaigai..by dat time i really regret...seems like my mouth is the main cause...lolz...
but now i do hope dat i can appreciate wat she did for us..think positively,we r helping each other to grow up,she help me grew as teenager,n i help her grew as n mother..give each other some hearts,i believe the family wil b better^^


3.lazy tidy up my room...my house room..i always spend my holiday time tidy it up..but always did not work..
my room..how to say,i shared wif my sis..a small room..but half of it is cupboard..my mum;s stuffs so many inside...so lack of space to store my clothes..so everytime when i wana search for clothes...sure wil vy untidy d..actually now i got a solution,hang it up wif the hangers i get bac frm my hostel room..but actually stil vy crowded..really hard to find..i couldnt blame anyone as everytime i bring dis issue up in my family,sure i lose de...
lolz..so jz bear wif it..all boxes aso in my room..im not complaining or wat..as i stay so since lastime..so jz appreciate dat at least i hv bed to sleep...if not~jz sad ownself

4. jealousy..
im really good in dis stupid attitude..
i duno y...mayb im lack of confident since im kids til now..
say frm result...im not dat intelligent type..so i work n study hard for my academics everytime as i knw without gud academins,i may hard to survive in future as i dont own a gud brain or look..so wat i nd is to put effords my self...
but sumtime i do feel arghh..y sum ppl wil score much better compare to the efforts we gave.....
den i wil blame again y so unfair..stupid rite..
n den sumore..abt the look...i always hang out wif frens dat looked much better den me...den when we were out,the got the attention usually..i do sad sumtime n wil jealous lo..lolz...den i keep telling myself dont too mind abt it...but sumtime,i do care much n hurt=.=...LOL...
wat to do...being born so..cant change anything...so ..hope myself cheer myself up every time

den wat else..
actually many many else...
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